caotic!!!

That's what my life is now. caotic. so little time until im moving, and yet nothing done.
well...I still have a week to pack my whole life, send it to Sweden (the things Im not bringing to the States) sell my car (which is a problem since it has Swedish licence plates, but my dear man is a cliff and helps me with that) arrange for the payments, go to the embassy for the visa interview, find a place to stay in San Diego. Well...watch me, I'll make it!

//To resolve an eqvation you have to find all the roots.//

my time...is not now

who ever thought finding a decent job was this hard???

anyway in times like these you know who's your friend. ;)
im trying to stay positive however I know that Ive been a pain in the ass lately. complaining about the job sitation and not doing MORE about it. Sorry guys.

so next move I might make is to California...another crazy move of mine. but seriously i can't live on love and air for much longer...even if I wish it worked like that. and who wouldn't want to wake up with this view....

well...at least that no?!

So finally I wake up and the sun is shining. Have you realized how much easier things are when the sun is shining?! I mean...getting out of bed is 100 times easier in sunshine as opposed to getting up in rain...

So I bought paint the other day...decided that I want to start to paint. well have I opened up and started? no...but just the fact that it's standing there available for me for when ever Im ready it makes me feel so much better.
I have all these ideas on what to paint. I wanna do like my friend has done...copy Roy Lichtenstein, but then add some new elements to it. hm...im sure im being very original hahaha

and while Im painting I'm going to listen to this and wonder why she had to die that young. it's a good tuuuune.

the other thing I was thinking of doing today is going to the beach. I miss the sea. but if im going or not is not the question. at least I was thinking of going. and this is what wikipedia says about thinking:
Thought and thinking are mental forms and processes, respectively ("thought" is both.) Thinking allows beings to model the world and to deal with it effectively according to their objectives, plans, ends and desires. Words referring to similar concepts and processes include cognition, sentience, consciousness, idea, and imagination.

Thinking involves the cerebral manipulation of information, as when we form concepts, engage in problem solving, reason and make decisions.

Thinking is a higher cognitive function and the analysis of thinking processes is part of cognitive psychology.

so according to this, just the fact that I was thinking is a great deal on its own!

well obviously everything is easy if you're big in japan!

what's going on today?

that's the question I ask myself every morning. what's going on today?
well depending on the weather really. my new hobby has turned out to be youtube. what an invention, i mean you find everything on there! yesterday I got caught in old episodes of nilecity this tv-series that was popular when I was a teenager. it was hilarious....good times good times.

so they said it was going to be sunny today. well they were wrong. it's still this gloomy boring grey day and it's cold. didn't know that rome could get this cold. well little did I know!

so today i have to go to my agency and get my paycheck, that's about how exciting my day looks like. i really do feel creative do. maybe paint a painting. but without paint it's kinda hard. hm...play the piano, but then again without the piano even that gets a bit tough.
yesterday i went to a jazz concert...it was nice. but then I was wondering what am I here to do? i need to find something quickly, because im literally going mad!

I read about this swedish hollywood actress today, malin akerman, she said in an interview that three years ago she was broke and lived at a friends house. so that's where i am now, so maybe there's still hope for me. maybe in three years you'll read about me in some magazine?!

today's quote is actually a video. a thank you to a very special someone!

life's weird

what can i say, this past weekend felt like sweden. i mean the weather in rome was ridiculus. I took a walk with my friend in a big park here in rome and what happens. the sky opens up, trees fall behind us in front of us, they destroy cars. and as we walk out, the sun shines. it was literally like jurassic park rome.

anyway...not having something to do might seem nice. for a while. now it's been too long for me. "the spoiled little princess" is bored. of doing nothing, can't stand it any longer. i need a change, but what? work? yes. travel? yes. let's hope for the best, but who knows. maybe change of country. after all, that's what im good at.

anyway...the quote of the day is......

"A man is basically as faithful as his options!" -Chris Rock.
God I hope he is wrong.

time to write

So I found my blog again...but I didn't find the inspiration to write. Until today.
I was online talking to a friend who told me about his blog johansilandsproblem.blogg.se
it was a "good kick in the ass" so to say I need to do something creative.
Im funny though cause when I have a million things to do, that's when I'm creative and full of ideas. But as now, when I have nothing to do (not really true...but oh well) and all this time on my hand, what do I do? That's right...shit! I do shit!
What I really am is a responsible and creative person. Most of the time that is. Then other times, like this, I am the most lazy person on the planet.
Well I guess everything has its time and place, or no?!

I don't wanna complain though I guess it's like a really intelligient person in my life said:
"Do tomorrow what you don't feel like doing today!"
I couldn't agree more...